Usually a diagnosis of a
severe mental health problem will be given by a GP or psychiatrist after they have made an assessment. This includes asking questions, observing the person and comparing what they see and hear to criteria set for different categories of mental illnesses. Getting a diagnosis can be a difficult process and sometimes symptoms of mental health problems are unclear or appear less or more severe than they are.
Some people we spoke to were not diagnosed for a long time after they first became unwell. Other people described receiving many different diagnoses over their lifetime.
The diagnoses people had received included bipolar disorder I or II (or the older term manic depression), schizophrenia, schizoaffective disorder, reactive psychosis, depression, generalised anxiety disorder, bulimia nervosa, eating disorder NOS, obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD), borderline personality disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, and gender dysphoria.
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Receiving a diagnosis
What diagnosis meant for people
Multiple diagnoses
When
Evan was experiencing paranoia in the 1970s he went to see several GPs who said it was ‘just stress’. It was only after he admitted himself to hospital that he was diagnosed with schizophrenia.
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Okay. Well, I first developed my mental illness in 1977, first diagnosed in 1977. But prior to that I just had symptoms of paranoia and I thought people were following me, I thought people were talking about me.
I didn’t hear actually voices but I thought people were talking about me. I was paranoid about the way people were talking around me if you like. So, then it became problematic obviously and so I approached my parents. My parents could see that there was a problem. They took me to a number of GPs and I went to a spiritual healer, a priest of our local church as well. And through that I was told to just go home and it will just, it was just stress I was told back in ’77, 1977.
So I went home and the problem became exacerbated a bit more. And I told my parents I needed to perhaps go and see the, the emergency department at a hospital. So I did. I went to one main hospital in Victoria, the emergency department. I actually went a few times there before I actually got to see psychiatrist if you like. And that psychiatrist finally, after a few visits to the psychiatrist, he decided that it was, I had schizophrenia and I was made an inpatient in the hospital for three months.
Receiving a diagnosis
Some people we spoke to were diagnosed a long time ago (up to 37 years ago) while others were only recently diagnosed (as little as one year ago) and a few couldn’t remember exactly at what point they were given a diagnosis. While it could be difficult to recall the moment when the diagnosis was given, a few remembered the conversation in detail. Some of the people we spoke to described not being told about their diagnosis by their treating doctors when it was first written in their notes, and only became aware of it sometimes after it was made.
The first time
Alice knew about her diagnosis was when she was discharged from hospital and saw it written on the discharge sheet.
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And that was the diagnosis itself? When did you receive it and how was it given to you in the mental health unit?
So, again I don’t recall ever formally being given like a diagnosis other than, to me, a lot of what was happening was being advised to my family, not directly to me. But that’s what I felt anyway, I don’t know, having you know at the time. So I don’t feel like anything technical was ever being described to me, other than you know, this happens to a lot of people. It’s like breaking an arm, you need time for it to heal. Yeah, kind of lots of analogies, lots of sort of graphs in terms of everybody has you know the other graph that I remember being shown to me, with my family present. Was you know everyone has a breaking point, put enough on to them and we’ll end up in this kind of, you know, unrealistic based in real, you know, based in unreality.
So I don’t remember any sort of formal, like until I probably got a discharge statement, that’s when I think it had a kind of first episode psychosis on it
When you read that on the discharge sheet, what did you think and how did you feel?
So initially I think I was kind of very angry at the services. So I didn’t, I still look back feeling that yes, I will absolutely admit that there was an element of my thoughts and that inhibited my behaviour that was out of touch with reality. I will admit that. But there was a lot of me that was grounded in reality at the same time. So I still feel that it was a very kind of – what’s the word I’m trying to say. I’m very like it was a very kind of intense approach to what I think was probably maybe at most, you know, even throwing maybe 20 per cent of me was being inhibited by.
It was not until later in his life that
Simon was told of his diagnosis. He was not allowed to see his files and had to apply to see them under the Freedom of Information Act.
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Can you recall when you received these different diagnoses?
No, that’s why I’m getting the freedom of information stuff, I’m backtracking to find out who did what.
Yeah, so it’s okay.
That’s how I managed to get a copy of the letter from my first psychiatrist back to the GP who referred me. Because I got it on the freedom of information of the next admission, when I went to [mental health hospital], when I went to [hospital] to the therapeutic community there.
When did you first come to know of these diagnoses?
2009 when I got freedom of information for [regional centre in Victoria] for 2008.
So up until that point, you hadn’t understood that you had received any kind of a diagnosis?
No. Because in 2004 they wouldn’t let me see my file, before I fronted the board. Because on the forms, they’ve ticked has the patient seen the file, no, do you intend to apply for exemption so they don’t get to see the file, no. They just couldn’t be bothered doing it. So they hadn’t applied to the board for permission not to let me see my file, but they hadn’t let me see my file. They hadn’t told me that I had the right to see my file.
The way in which the diagnosis was delivered was important to people. Ann described how the psychiatrist ‘blurted it out’, telling her that she ‘probably had schizophrenia’. Ann said she has always experienced some ‘insensitivity’ on the part of medical practitioners when advised of a new diagnosis. When Cindy was trying to get help for a skin condition on her hand she was told by a psychiatrist, ‘You’re delusional’. In relation to the diagnosis of schizophrenia that she received, Cindy reflected, ‘I don’t know whether it’s something they make up sometimes’.
Susana described how she was advised that she had had a nervous breakdown in front of a family member whom she did not get along with very well. She found this embarrassing.
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Okay, so you’re living at home and on your medication, and you’ve been told that you’ve got this diagnosis and you’ve had a nervous breakdown, which was obviously really…
Which is ages ago, the nervous breakdown I was told by one doctor, but he’s now left, so that’s all right.
And that was really hard to hear?
Oh it was just a bit upsetting because I was, I was a bit embarrassed, and I was with a family member who I didn’t really get along with, in the same room and it was kind of awkward.
Oh gosh.
Yeah it was very, it wasn’t very nice.
For others, it was hard to understand what exactly the diagnosis was. Allen was diagnosed with bipolar disorder ‘for a while’ but is now told he is ‘probably schizoaffective’ and in remission. He doesn’t know ‘what that means’ because for him mental health is a ‘constant thing’ and requires constant management. Sarah’s psychiatrist diagnosed her with schizoaffective disorder, but when Sarah looked it up and told her psychiatrist that it didn’t match her symptoms, the psychiatrist said that was because what she had was ‘not a full on… psychosis’. She now thinks doctors don’t ‘really know enough’ about psychosis.
After the diagnosis, some people found it useful to read up and do their own research on mental health and illness, which included looking for information on trauma and hearing voices (see Searching for information).
What diagnosis meant for people
Some people felt a sense of relief on receiving a diagnosis. For Lisa, the diagnostic label ‘really clicked’ with her. When Helen found out that her diagnosis of manic depression meant she ‘was bipolar’, things began ‘falling into place’. When Carlo read a book called Living with Bipolar, he said that it was the first time that he felt someone else ‘understood what was going on’.
For others though, receiving a diagnosis was distressing. Jenny said that it was ‘scary being labelled schizophrenic’. After being diagnosed with bipolar disorder, Carlo said that it was ‘frightening for [him] to accept’.
Charlie described how receiving a diagnosis of schizophrenia in hospital was a frightening experience because her elder brother had recieved ‘a similar diagnosis’.
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So can you remember what it was like, I guess, receiving the diagnosis that you…
Well I was given a diagnosis, I think, when I was in hospital and that was schizophrenia, yeah.
Can you remember what that was like or…
It was very scary, yeah because I have other members of my family who have the same or similar diagnosis. So I sort of knew from what my brother had gone through and was going through, sort of knew a little bit. You know, how he accepted help and got help and stuff. So I knew a little bit about the system before, yeah, from him.
Do you think that was helpful?
Yeah it was, yeah.
And was this your older brother?
Yeah.
Luana recalled that she was scared when she received her diagnosis because she thought people with schizophrenia were ‘away with the fairies’ and this didn’t match her own experience.
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The first time I was diagnosed, I was diagnosed in 2009 with first episode psychosis and that sort of, you know, scared me and I sort of, I didn’t really realise that it was actually schizophrenia. I thought it was related to lack of sleep, deprivation that had caused it so I was kind of in denial. But that was partly because of my family’s treatment of my relative who had schizophrenia and they never got help for him.
So I thought that people who had schizophrenia were really, you know, really away with the fairies and not able to communicate. And like really obviously, you know, looked like they had. I didn’t realise that there were people out there who were functioning and well, and able to do things. Schizophrenia, for me, schizophrenia was someone who was you know, totally not coherent.
While most people didn’t question their diagnosis, a few had received a diagnosis they felt was wrong, or that they refused to accept. It was frustrating for some when the diagnosis didn’t seem to fit with their experience of being unwell. Although Brendan was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder he didn’t feel it was ‘a good fit’ and still questions it. Simon felt he was given ‘an incorrect’ diagnosis of borderline personality disorder, along with other diagnoses, which were on his record for a long time.
Tanai ‘hated’ being diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. She knew other people with that diagnosis and had tried to ‘shut down’ any ‘hallmarks of borderline’ in herself.
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When did you receive your diagnosis for borderline?
I was 17.
So this is around, was this around the same time as the psychosis?
Yep. Yeah.
And was that from that psychiatrist who prescribed you the Seroquel (quetiapine)?
This was from my first psychiatrist who was a woman that I saw in [state] and she was the one who actually connected me to the man I saw in [state] who like continued and that was basically where I got more and more Seroquel (quetiapine) from. But yeah, they weren’t sure, like at first it was either borderline or schizoaffective disorder. Because with the psychosis, and then they decided like the psychosis didn’t continue throughout adolescence. Like and it didn’t continue into adulthood except for when triggered by drugs. So basically, I’m not naturally a psychotic. So then it was decided like yep, it’s borderline personality disorder.
Which I was, I was actually quite upset about because I refused to have borderline personality disorder. I refused. I refused. I hated it. I’ve never gotten along with people with it and there’s, to be honest, I think that’s where the majority of the restrictive eating behaviours came from. I think it became a way to un-borderline myself.
All of the things that are the hallmarks of borderline are the things I’ve tried to shut down in myself. The loudness and the huge emotions and all of those kinds of things, I have attempted to just squash down completely by restricting. By becoming smaller.
For some, the diagnosis seemed to be a way for the doctor to understand what they were experiencing. Ann and David both said that they didn’t ‘really care’ what ‘label’ they were given as long as the best care was available. Others felt that a diagnosis was a means of getting the treatment that would make their illness go away, or help them to feel better.
When
Brendan was given his initial diagnosis of bipolar disorder he thought it would mean there would be treatment and a way forward. Now he has had to accept ‘maybe this is always going to be how life is’.
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In terms of actually receiving a diagnosis, can you, and you might not be able to recall, but just in terms of how the diagnosis was delivered and your reaction to it, can you recall any of that?
I can, I’m trying to think who it actually was that told me. I remember what my, I’m trying to think of the exact time when I was told. I know more of the afterwards, is that I was relieved more than anything else.
I wasn’t like, ‘Oh no, I’ve got a diagnosis, this is terrible’. I was more, you know, ‘Hooray, this is, there is something that’s going on here. This isn’t just all in my head. You know, maybe I can get some help now’. Or, you know, this is like a way forward that, you know, if there’s a problem, or there’s that diagnosis then that means that there’s treatment, I guess. I don’t think, I may not of thought of it that logically, that was more of an okay, you know, good, I’m glad, it means that okay, this is a real thing that’s going on, it’s not just me, you know, being sad or something.
And has that continued, that feeling of…
No, I wish it’d never, never happened, obviously. But yeah, like I don’t know whether it, you know, when we’ve revisited to make a diagnosis, yeah I don’t know. Like, I guess I feel that this is just, you know, this is part of my reality now and that maybe this is always going to be how life is like for me.
A few talked about how their family responded to a diagnosis. Carlo felt it was difficult for his now ex-wife to ‘accept or understand’ his diagnosis. Some also reflected on how family had responded when other relatives were diagnosed with mental illness (see Discrimination and social responses to mental health problems).
Multiple diagnoses
Many people were given different diagnoses over their lifetime, which could be confusing. Ann felt as though she had received ‘every diagnosis under the sun’.
A few people felt that a new diagnosis resulted in reduced care. Brendan was diagnosed with bipolar II disorder at the age of 25 and then in his late 30s ‘they came up with’ a diagnosis of depression. He felt that the new diagnosis was given so he ‘didn’t have to be case managed’, but felt that the diagnosis of depression ‘came to nothing’ in terms of his care.
Anna was diagnosed first with major depression, but was later given a diagnosis of borderline personality disorder. More recently, she described how the diagnosis was changed to ‘rapid cycling bipolar’. She said having ‘quite a lot of diagnoses’ isn’t unusual. Some people she has spoken to have said that what diagnosis people receive is related to ‘whatever’s in trend’ at that point in time. Others seemed to accept that their diagnosis had changed over the course of their life.
When
Paddy was 27 his previous diagnosis of schizophrenia (given when he was 14) was changed to schizoaffective disorder. He thought that better treatment would be available with the new diagnosis.
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How long were you in hospital for in that 2007 stint?
Oh well I came back in. I had to come back in soon after, but I was there for a total of at least seven weeks, I’d say. Because I had to come in for three weeks and then a longer time, maybe four or five weeks, the second time. So it maybe, seven or eight weeks, yeah.
And that was when your diagnosis was changed to schizoaffective from schizophrenia?
Yeah. That, I think that same nurse actually that said, “Focus on being well”, actually noticed something about my behaviour and, oh in a good way, and thought yeah, he might actually have a different diagnosis.
And talked to you about that?
She talked to me about it, yeah, yeah. She said, yeah she noticed something about my voices or something. Like my gibberish. Like not hearing voices type thing. I was talking about stuff to myself.
So that’s interesting that it was, it wasn’t a psychiatrist but a nurse that was really key to…
Yeah, obviously they would have had, they would have had a team of psychiatrists in there that would have felt maybe he does have that too. But yeah. But obviously [doctor] thinks I have that too so I have it.
Does it mean anything to you to be given those labels or…
Not so much. It just probably means it’s more, if it’s more accurate, it might be better in treatment, so yeah.
And does it, does the word schizoaffective mean anything to you or?
Oh, all I know it’s a mixture of bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. That’s all I know. Yeah, something to do with mood, I don’t know. No I don’t. Obviously there’s confusion in the mind, and a chemical imbalance that I need to, and I get that treated with tablets and drugs and stuff, not just tablets, yeah.
Despite receiving multiple diagnoses, some people felt that they experienced ‘symptoms’ that were not accounted for.
Although she has had many diagnoses over her lifetime,
Ann said her psychiatrist has now ‘settled’ on bipolar disorder, but there is still a ‘big question mark’ as to why she hears voices.
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It sort of started off as a kid. It was just, I was just told I was hyperactive and had an overactive imagination. Then I was just a disruptive teen. I guess in later years it, the first sort of diagnosis when I first started getting benzos and things to take was just stress and that grew into anxiety disorder, generalised anxiety disorder. And from that, that changed to depression then it was depression and anxiety, then for a little while I was schizoaffective for some reason. I’ve never been OCD which is probably a good thing. And now they’ve just settled on bipolar, but there’s still this big sort of question mark as to why I’m hearing voices and things like that.
But they’ve just settled on bipolar and even then they won’t commit to whether it’s bipolar one or bipolar two, so I don’t, I don’t know what I am. I’m just a little bit different and that’s okay. I don’t need a label. I’m just a little bit different and I deal with it and that’s all that matters.