We spoke to people about what it feels like to be ageing. In addition to their self-perception and identity (see Self-perceptions of ageing), the most prominent issues people talked about were the changes in their body, such as physical fitness and aches and pains (see also Body image, sex and dating and Transport and mobility). It was not always easy for participants to distinguish the physical experience of ageing from other chronic conditions they lived with. Several people pointed out they did not mind getting old, but did not want the illness that was associated with old age, and others felt they were healthy despite having numerous health issues (see Health conditions).
Denis talks about the difference between chronic disease, pain and the body wearing out with age.
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Yes, yes I think I – I’m just trying to separate the two in my mind the pain, the chronic pain. But yes so I feel the ageing – ageing mellows you of course, and chronic pain comes in on top of that and tells you well you might want to go and do something but you’re not going to. But I think the ageing factor is that you can’t do them, you’re slowing down, everything’s slowing down. But I haven’t met many people lately that are around my age that haven’t got pain, very few. They might look normal in the street or when you’re having a drink with them, but they’ve all got problems. I think that’s part of your ageing process where things start to wear out.
Well you’re coming to the end of the road that’s always a negative. Yeah, see it’s hard to separate the growing old from the pain factor, chronic pain factor. I think if I was in good health I think I would still be fairly content, because the body does slow down, if you’ve got chronic disease or anything you’ll still slow down because of your age. Because all the parts are starting to wear out and so you sit back and avoid pain where you can, and just enjoy life now, you’ve done your working and you’re struggling. Just enjoy it.
Elaine M would like to be older without being sick.
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Bad things, I don’t want to get sick, I don’t want to be cripple or someone running around with, walking around and I’m sitting on the wheelchair, I don’t want to see that. I like to be older but not more sick. Get this arthritis, I’m always checking up on me that I, I get very sick here, maybe like arthritis or something, it’s sore here or here, but sometimes I think no.
It is the illness rather than the ageing process that has been a problem for
Brian H.
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Well ageing has been an up and down sort of an affair because when I first retired I was extremely fit and then later on during my retirement I got quite ill. So the ageing part from approximately 2009 or ’10 has been extremely difficult owing to health problems.
So it’s not the ageing process itself, it’s the illnesses and the condition that came along?
Not the ageing process. The ageing process is actually, if it wasn’t for this illness I’d be still quite fit. So the actual ageing hasn’t aged me much. I’ve still got all my faculties so it hasn’t affected us a great deal that way.
One of the biggest drawbacks of ageing was the reduced capacity to do things. People talked about walking slower, no longer being able to drive (see Transport and mobility), play a musical instrument, travel, garden, lift things, shower and dress themselves.
Tonia realised around the age of 70 that she could not do half the things she used to. Her husband Michael started to feel old at the age of 77.
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Tonia: Old age came unexpectedly. Everything was all good when we came here, but then at 70 a feeling that something is wrong developed. It’s like you used to have everything you need and you were having success right in your hands, but then I realized that I can’t do even half of what I used to do. And I thought, “Well, how strange!” And then I thought, “It must be just old age.” And we laughed at the idea. When we came here, I worked a lot. The children would order bread, and I would make all this bread for them. And then at some point I just told them, “Children, I just can’t do that much anymore. I am not that strong as you used to know me.” And then later my heart “seized up” and I had a full by-pass surgery. And then I became ill, and since that time, I have been having all these conditions, one by one. Ongoing. This is how old age comes. All the children help us every day. They do all the cleaning and washing, and shopping. They take us to doctors and to the church. My legs refuse to walk, my hands refuse to work, and my mind blanks out. This is how your old age is.
Uncle Misha, would you like to say anything?
Michael: Yes, my story would be the same. It was totally unexpected for me too. When we came here, I was 77, and it is here that I started to feel old. My eyes are only half functional. I don’t recognize either of you – not in the least. I am half-blind, and the doctors refused any treatment. They’ve checked and said they can do nothing about my eyes. And the same with health in general; I feel weak. So, this is our life, and Praise-the-Lord, the government pays us our pension as we can’t work. Our children take care of us. They take us to the church. This is all that we can boast of.
Brian H cannot lift things because of a hernia but hates to ask anyone for help.
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Brian: Not being able to do what you want to do. If I need to lift something I’ve got to go and call somebody for help; that’s annoying to me you know, and I can’t do a lot of the things I used to do and that’s the negatives things about growing older.
Shirley: He hates to ask anybody for help. He says, “I can do that myself”, and really he can’t.
Brian: No, that’s the negative part of it.
So does that impact on your self-esteem or your wellbeing?
Brian: No, no.
Or is it something you take in your stride?
No, just take it in your stride.
Shirley: I keep an eye on him. People around the other houses, they see him up a ladder or something and they’ll come tearing down, “What are you doing out there? You know you can’t climb a ladder, now you get down here at once. Now what do you want done? I’ll do it”.
Brian: I have friends around!
Fred used to love walking and describes the frustration he feels not being able to do the things he used to.
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Frustrating, but I do almost everything myself, so I really haven’t noticed it, but it is frustrating generally not to be able to do the things you used to do. I mean I used to love walking and now I battle with a– I have good days and bad days. My bad days I can’t walk properly and they come and go, but I think frustration is the biggest thing about that.
In contrast to many people’s experience of reduced physical capacity with age, some people said they had not experienced any restrictions because of their age and consequently did not feel old (see Self-perceptions of ageing: Olga). Other people described not being able to achieve as much in a day, usually in terms of work. This was of particular concern for people who had not yet retired or were used to working long hours.
Chris used to bring work home to do at night but now finds he is too tired. He has also realised he only has a short time left for adventurous travel.
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No I don’t feel old. But I notice for instance I get more tired than I used to, I used to be able to do anything and keep going all day and half the night. Now I find that during the evening for instance I just cannot bring myself to do any work, you know work work, whereas I spent my whole life bringing stuff home and doing a bit at night time. Now I just cannot face the thought, for some reason I feel I can’t do that.
Another one is you realise that eventually you won’t be able to do what you want to do; we like travelling, we’ve been very active, not the cruise type travel but the active travel. Last year we went on a camping trip up through the Kimberleys which was really terrific but we know that probably in five or so years we probably won’t be able to do that sort of thing. That we’ll maybe be more settled into the cruise type travel, I don’t know we’ve probably got longer than five years. But it’s that realisation that you won’t be able to do what you did, it’s not really negative at the moment but when it happens it may be a negative because we can still do what we want to do and it’s fine.
Maree worked as a cleaner and used to be very active. It now takes her a lot longer to get things done.
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Well because I can’t climb up and do what I want to do, I can’t walk very far, I can’t do a lot of things. It takes me ages to do what I used to do, because I used to be very active.
Active as in?
Working and cleaning and doing everything.
People likened the physical experience of ageing to a gradual slowing down. Some people said this occurred at 60, 70 or 75, and for others it was not until they were well into their 80s. For Austin, slowing down physically has meant he can nurture his intellectual side. Whereas Shirley has slowed down after her strokes (see Health conditions), which meant giving up bushwalks and travel. Helen B pointed out that this need to slow down could be nature’s way of taking care of you as you age.
Getting older has been a gradual process of slowing down for
Helen W, which she noticed in her mid 70s.
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Getting older, it’s a gradual thing, you don’t really notice it straight off. It’s all of a sudden one day you think “Oh, I haven’t done all that today” usually you do – I used to wake up and think “I can do all this, that and the other today” and now, as you get older, you think “I’ve got two or three of them done” so it’s got to be put off until tomorrow. I think the slowing down process, it’s a gradual thing, it’s not – it doesn’t really worry me particularly, it’s just something that happens, so you go with it.
When did you notice that? That slowing down the first time.
What am I? 83. Probably about eight or nine years ago, I was lucky enough to be pretty active until about probably eight or nine years ago and then with a few health problems, you know, you get the odd thing, a bit of arthritis and a bit of this, that and the other and a few odd operations, you find you don’t get out of bed as quickly as you used to. I used to wake up every morning thinking “Terrific, another day” now I wake up thinking “I’ve got to get out of bed” but I still do it and I’m still happy to do it, but it’s a slightly different feeling to what it was eight or nine years ago.
Helen B does not have the desire to move at such a fast pace and thinks it could be nature’s way of taking care of you.
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You might slow down, but that even is usually a choice. As I say, I just don’t have the desire to move at a hundred miles an hour.
Is that a physical thing or is that about something else?
I just sort of feel it’s probably nature’s way of taking care of you up to a point that, you know, you just slow down. I mean I don’t think it would do me any good at my age to be going at the pace I used to and trying to fit in as many things. I haven’t got down to snail’s pace like my friend that I keep an eye on.
People said they got tired much more easily than when they were younger. At the age of 79, Brian X said “I have a nanna nap now. I didn’t do that when I was in my 60s”. Other people said they lacked energy, became tired more easily cleaning the house, slept in for the first time in their lives, or did less but still felt tired.
Nora lee finds she does not have as much energy as she did in her 30s and 40s and often has an afternoon nap.
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I just – okay, I go to work and I’m only working two days a week now. I can come home both nights, fall asleep on the couch for an hour and then get up and not do anything. Whereas in my thirties and forties, you’d work all day, you’d come home, you’d have dinner and then you’d work all night. I feel like I’m – you know, and now that I’m home because I’m not working as much, I can work for three hours, four hours during the day and I have to sit down. Have to have an afternoon nap. But then my mum did it, so maybe it’s hereditary. But yeah, it’s just not having the energy to do a lot of the things. There are days when I do really, really good and I get lots done. Then there are days where – yeah, we just kind of – you know, reading a book is about all I can do. So it’s a bit frustrating that way. Because there’s so many things you want to do.
Several people pointed out their loss of fitness and that they were no longer able to run. Not being able to play sport was a concern for some men, particularly if they used to play a lot of sport their whole life. People were, however, very resilient and often found other interests they were more capable of (see Interests and activities).
When
Charles had to give up squash at the age of 75 he became interested in CB radio, and went on to provide radio communication for organised sport.
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I played social squash right up until I was 75 and that was when the leg, the knee, started giving me real trouble. I’d play on the Thursday at night, on the Friday the leg was ballooned up and I could hardly walk. That’d take a couple of days then the next week I’d go back and do it all again, which was a bit stupid really but never mind. The doctor said that of all the sport that I played it had all been leg sport, that has been the main effect that it’s got to the joints and the worse one of all, he said, was the squash because it’s stop-start all the time.
Oh, well, you don’t want to stop but you just have to stop, you can only drive your body so far and then you’ve just got to say “Well, I can’t do that anymore so I’ve got to find something else.” It was that that turned me to playing radio so I started just having a bit of a hit and trying to keep it going. Then I turned to the radio and radio became more complicated because I then joined the club, the radio club which is up here. From there, we were asked to provide radio communications for motor car rallies.
Brian X has found his body is winding down with age but mentally he is still sharp.
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The body winds down. You can’t do the things that you – I’m not talking mentally, I’m talking bodily. You can’t bend over as easy, but it’ll get worse.
You feel you haven’t slowed down in your mind at all?
No, I don’t think so. I don’t think so at all.
So ageing is a physical thing?
I think it’s physical and mental but up to this stage, touch wood, I haven’t experienced the mental breakdown, not to any great extent anyway. I think the other day I went into the linen press and I thought, “What did I come in here for?” I think that was only a senior’s moment. As far as the bodily functions go, I think I just can’t — when I was walking this morning, the traffic come out from the lights and I had to run across the road. It’ll get to the stage where I won’t be able to run and I don’t expect to when I’m in my 80s. You act your age, don’t you?
Robin used to play soccer and run half marathons but now finds running painful. He has taken up cycling, but after an accident now realises his reaction time is getting slower.
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Robin: I’ll tell you what for me, it’s the fitness part of it, you know, the health. I used to play soccer, I used to walk, I used to run. I used to do all the fun runs, half marathons. I used to do all those sort of things.
Lyn: Your golf.
Robin: I played golf also. I haven’t played for a while because I had an operation on my shoulder.
Lyn: All the joints going.
Robin: So that’s another thing I do, you know, golf. I took that up later in life. I just find that I just can’t run.
Lyn: But you gradually moved from running to walking to trying something else, cycling.
Robin: Yeah, well I had a procedure done on my hip because of a pain I had, but I loved running and I said to Lynette, “When we come back” – because we are at my mum’s place while we’re renovating, and we’ve come back now for a week – I said, “I must get back into running.” And I went for a walk the other day and on the way back across the oval I thought I’d run. It is so hard, I had a severe pain here, you know. So these are the things that I’m thinking, gee, you know. I love kicking the ball around and there’s still things like that, you know, I find I’m not as steady on my feet, you know.
Lyn: We haven’t tried tennis.
Robin: I’m just not as steady on my feet. So these are the things that sort of, that’s why I want to keep fit because I just find I’d fall over so easily. It’s unbelievable. I mean, I fell over at the shopping centre the other day.
Lyn: Did you?
Robin: Oh a few months ago. The sidewalk, there was a difference of levels, you know, and then I came to that part of the sidewalk, I looked up at something and I kicked my foot against the, it’s only a small step like that.
Lyn: Yeah, but that happens to everyone.
Robin: But normally, I would have recovered very easily, but I went straight down, you know. I didn’t get hurt or anything. I went straight down and I thought, God Almighty, this would never have happened maybe even a few years ago. So it’s those sort of things I just find that’s the sort of thing that worries me.
Lyn: Well that happened to me quite a while back and so I’m just more aware now that I can’t get up as quickly, and I need to make sure there’s something I could hold on nearby, or my feet, the way I walk, I adjust that.
Robin: So I’m very conscious, even riding my bike now, I’m very conscious of the fact that your brain says something but often your body can’t respond in time, you know. So I’m conscious of that now. I did have a bicycle accident not too long ago. Not a big accident or anything, but you know, into a fence in Perth where they’re building the Elizabeth Quay in Perth by the Bell Tower. It was a crowded pathway, they had made the pathway narrower, because of the building of the Elizabeth Quay, and my brake handle just caught in the fence. I didn’t fall, but it pulled me that way, you know, and it’s grazed my hand and so on and I thought, gee you know, I would have been more alert when I was younger. That wouldn’t have happened. So it’s just these little incidents that are happening now as you get older. So I’m very aware when I get on my bike. Slow down. Always trying to go fast. Slow down a bit, take the corners a bit more gently.
Older participants or those who were frail were more likely to talk about their fear of falls and how important it was to prevent them. Several people had suffered lots of falls which had frightened them and in some cases resulted in hospitalisation and broken bones, which took a long time to heal. The preventive measures people took to avoid falls included taking care in wet areas, on stairs and uneven surfaces; having a walking frame; modifying their home to include a ramp or rails; and generally being more careful.
Earl lives alone and is worried about falling over and not being able to get up. He does not want to be a burden on anyone should he break an arm or leg.
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Well that’s another problem too because I’ve got no one to check on me every day. If I fell over I’d probably die on the floor. If I couldn’t get up, I’ve got no one here to keep an eye on me or anything; that’s a worry. Well if it happens I’d be here on my own until the neighbours starts smelling, they’ll go oh well Earl’s not with us anymore, but that is a problem too. It happens all the time, you know the people living on their own they could fall over and crack their head and can’t get up and they’re there for a couple of days dying.
I don’t know dying I suppose, or getting hurt or having an accident and someone looking after you, you know. I say if I had a broken leg and a broken arm, I’d be in trouble here so I don’t know what I’d do.
Helen W is more careful after falling off a ladder.
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And things like getting – I was cleaning the top of my kiln out in the garage on a two-step ladder and I thought ‘oh, that’s good’ and I stepped back, bang! And I had a huge egg on my head so I learnt you have to think, you can’t do these things automatically like you used to because in the old days, you’d throw something at the wastepaper basket and misses, you know, and you think little things like that, I had a huge egg on my head but I learnt if I’m up a ladder, I’m saying I’m up a ladder I may as well be careful, be careful and mentally tell yourself “Don’t do this again” and getting into and out of the shower, I haven’t got any rails there yet but I do hang on to the thing where the shampoo is, just a little bit, so I can balance myself a bit. You’re not as strong with your legs and things. And doing the weeding, I now pay a gentleman $30 every six months or something to spray because getting down to do it, I still do the garden but it’s more of an effort.
For most participants the negative aspects of ageing were the effects on the body, which were experienced as reduced capacity to do things and specific illness conditions (see Health conditions). People did not, however, let this incapacity define them. Several people made the distinction between their mind and their body and decided to focus on the positive aspects of their life.
Kaye’s body lets her down but her mind flies.
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Negative, it’s just health wise. You are not able to do what you want to do. It’s just that your body lets you down. Your mind- I’m talking obviously about me. But my mind can fly but my body is getting older and I don’t like that. That’s the only thing stopping me is my health. But my health is not bad. Don’t get me wrong. I won’t let it get me to that point because life is too short. Far too short. But it is. The health is what holds you back, but as I said I only let mine hold me back as little as possible.
At 85
Dot started to feel the physical aspects of ageing much more, but feels she can still control her outlook on life.
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It’s mainly a physical thing, because I think you can control your mental aspects and views on life, and it’s up to you to take positive views, I’m not a negative thinker but it’s the physical, particularly the walking. So that’s it, your feet just do not always do what you want them to do.
When did you first notice that was happening?
Markedly at 85, and in honesty I find it quite annoying, because it has inhibited me in some aspects and so on.
If it were not for the physical deterioration and losing words,
Katherine would not mind getting old.
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I can’t move as fast, I think as quickly, I tend to lose words with capital letters, these days they’re all in box in my head with a rusty hinge and they come back to me after a while, but they’re not there when I want them very often, but apart from that, apart from physical deterioration, and the very slight mental deterioration I don’t see anything wrong with getting old.